This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.
I received this book unsolicited and thought it looked pretty good. Unfortunately I had a few issues with it that perpetuated throughout the entire book. First off, the book is entirely in first person voice from the perspective of the heroine, Emerald, which is her club name to keep her privacy. You never get anyone else’s perspective and the story falls flat listening to just one side of the story.
Julianna has spent the last several years learning everything she can about being the perfect submissive. She survived an abusive relationship early on before discovering the club Genesis and finding out how a true Dom should act. Taken under the wing of a gay Dominant, she calls him Daddy and his sub brother. This kind of creeped me out no matter if I understand the terms. The word Daddy and sex just makes me think incest even though Drake (Daddy Dom) never has a sexual relationship with her. Drake is really named Moses. Trevor is Drake/Moses’s submissive and we see him kiss Emerald quite often, but mostly in aftercare or in comfort.
Emerald has been having dreams of her perfect Dom and an angel who keeps pushing her to find her dream Dom. So before we get into the story, Emerald already knows what her Dom will look like, but she keeps longing for someone to claim her. To the point that I felt she bemoaned it constantly. So a Dom shows up, Jordan, who she feels an instant attraction too. Let’s just leave it that Jordan isn’t the guy they think he is. He does something so horrible I wondered how he thought he would get away with it even if Mika, the Genesis Club Owner, hadn’t broken into the room to break it up.
And that is how Emerald finds her Dom who is actually in her dreams. But the story continues on and we learn the Mika had a slave once who passed away from cancer. Mika believes there is only one soul mate for everyone, so he doesn’t want anything to do with Emerald even though he watches her every night in the club. It felt very stalkerish.
A lot happens in the book that I can’t talk about without giving away big plot points. But a big one…there is a paranormal element in that dead people are talking to both Emerald and Mika. Not in a creepy way, but in a guiding way. While I think this was supposed to reassure the reader, it just didn’t do it for me.
Emerald and Mika start to embark on a relationship and while Mika is patient, Emerald freaks out from her past and isn’t too sure on what Mika actually wants and needs. But we only get Emerald’s side of the story so I never really know what Mika feels or doesn’t feel.
Through it all I just couldn’t fall in love with Emerald. She wanted something so desperately but couldn’t find it. She also kept making mistakes in her “submission” that caused her to be punished. After a big incident she decides she isn’t submissive and several people start basically kidnapping her to take her to the club until she can figure out she is submissive…from a dream with Mika’s dead slave. Then something else happens and Mika gets a visit from his dead slave and dead mom. I wanted that to uplift me but it didn’t come across as uplifting.
We meet Mika’s father and at some point even he has a new sub and that woman seems to just take it in stride. We don’t see much of this, just glimpse into Emerald being around them. Again…flat.
I just couldn’t get into the book and ended up skimming the last fifty pages. I so wanted to know what Mika was feeling. The agony of finding a new love when he can’t seem to let go of the old one. The rush of finally giving into the love you feel. Growing in a new relationship. We just have to rely on the conversations Emerald has with him and whatever she thinks he feels. It just got old.
Five reasons you might want to read this book?
- There is a beautiful punishment scene that sends Emerald into subspace.
- The fear Emerald feels as a new sub desiring a Dom of her own is heartbreaking at first.
- The sex scenes with Mika and Emerald are … wow!
- I love getting to know a group of characters that I hope grow into series so we can see them later.
- Mika is full on Master…not Dom, but Master.