Genres: BDSM Romance
Published by Carina Press
Released on March 5, 2012
A few weeks ago, fellow reviewer, Aurora, reviewed this book. I was drawn right away to it, but kept telling myself I needed to get a few things done before I could indulge. Well, I didn’t listen to myself and indulged anyway and boy am I glad I did.
Right off the bat, you are thrown in to Jessica and Alex’s bedroom. They have been married for fifteen years, have two kids and successful careers. But like all marriages, the bedroom has become a little stale. When Alex has to work late and miss a date night with his wife, Jessica goes to a bookstore and finds a book she can’t put down. It is a BDSM book, a topic she has never even had an interest in. Gobbling up the book, she finds herself aroused and wanting what happened in that book to happen in real life. When Alex gets home, they have an deep and passionate love scene where he has had the best orgasm in his life. But when it was time to cuddle, Jessica was cold and weepy…because to her she felt like she had cheated while fantasizing about the book while they were engaged. Ashamed, she can’t admit to Alex what she read or even how she felt she slept with him, but also the people of her fantasy.
This goes on for three months. Jessica keeps buying books but having a guilty conscience. Alex is frustrated thinking something is wrong, but can’t break through Jessica’s cold wall of silence. They continue to have great sex, but Alex can feel Jessica pulling away and he is at a loss as to how to fix it. During this time, Jessica finally decides she wants her marriage more than losing it because of some fantasies. Alex decides he needs to confront this head on. What ensues is the heart of the book and why I held it so dear.
I don’t want to get personal about my own love life because it is mine, but I felt drawn to this book due to some circumstances in my own marriage. It is funny how in marriages, the one person you should be able to trust with every fantasy is the one you are most worried will be disgusted by those fantasies so you hide them. Exactly what Jessica did. Jessica was raised in a conservative family, where the basic idea of BDSM is reviled. So how was she supposed to share this with the one person she loves most of all?
In this day where 50 Shades of something is so hot that it makes me vomit, I was delighted to really see a story deal with someone who reads a sexually charged and generally thought of taboo subject and want to incorporate it into their marriage. It was a refreshing look at the other side of this phenomenon where the book is put down and the couple has to deal with the changing of their relationship.
Also, Jessica says one very important thing. Some are just fantasies and should be left at that. Some things she wants to try and may not like. Some things she wants to try and she may love. It is all about experimenting with what works for the couple. An example of this is how Jessica loved fantasies where there were multiple partners, but in reality she in no way wants any other man besides Alex in her bed. I loved how the honesty started flowing and watching a couple grow beyond the confines of what they find right and proper.
Their ensuing fight was to hard to read about, but also what made the story believable. Every couple fights. It is how they deal with the fighting that matters and it takes time for some healing, but Jessica and Alex work hard to improve their communication as well as they sex life.
And the B&B (Bondage and Breakfast)…sign me up! It sounds so interesting and very respectful in the having signs out everywhere claiming what it was. It wasn’t over the top for this couple, but could cater to the needs of deeper BDSM elements.
I started this book one night just thinking I would end up reading a page or two and get back to what I needed to be doing. From page one I couldn’t put it down. When it was time to put my son down for bed, I didn’t want to put the book down at all. I had to force myself out of the story and back to real life. This is an example of how Jodie Griffin drew me into her world and I forgot there was a real world for a while. Incredible. Thank you for writing a book that talked to me in so many ways.