Genres: BDSM Romance
Released on October 27, 2009
Another first person book…but this one’s saving grace was getting both sides of the story from the hero and heroine. I started this book and put it down soon afterwards only to find myself still thinking of it. So I picked it back up to give another try because it was just one of those books where you just couldn’t look away even though you were sure it wasn’t going to be too your liking.
As I said, this is a first person book, but it trades off between Nell and Jeremy to provide a better rounded story. Nell is a sex worker without the sex. Confused? Nell works in a BDSM club where she sells her body to Doms for their use, but no fluids must be passed. So basically she gets whipped, spanked and other things for money. Through some events, she gets fired from her job and is desperate fo work, thus working as a waitress when Jeremy Gray, a famous actor, comes in for meal.
The story leads us to believe Jeremy is looking for a personal assistant, but really he is looking for a girl friend for hire, who will do what he wants of course for money. Jeremy isn’t a very likable characters. Twisted and just plain cruel I felt for most of the book. But not only is she his girl friend, she agrees to a Dom/sub relationship where he can share her and use her in pretty much any way he wants. Her one big limit was the use a cane, which plays into a scene later in the book.
The two fly off to the set of a movie Jeremy is filming. It isn’t just one set or even one country, so there was a lot of hopping around the world. Jeremy’s real assistant knows the relationship Jeremy and Nell have, but no one else outside of their little group can learn of this, so Nell is often put on notice to keep her moans and cries low or he would gag her.
During this time a stalker starts harassing the two, but they all keep it a secret from Nell. Then there is a fight over what Nell’s real name is. Oh, and don’t get me started on how Jeremy burns all of Nell’s books. That is a deal breaker for me buddy.
Like I said, this was like a car crash I couldn’t look away from. It wasn’t enjoyable for the majority of the book. The sex, while it might have been hot, was often uncomfortable for me. Punishments were often cruel, but very affective.
Nell isn’t a stupid blonde bimbo here. She started Harvard at one time but had to quit over a family issue. She hoards her books like best friends. Most of them were so dog eared and old. Through all of this she often reminds herself she will have enough money to go back to school, but I often wondered if it was worth it.
It’s hard to rate and recommend this book as I didn’t like Jeremy at all. He never redeemed himself and just made me want to punch him with how egotistical he is. Nell, I wanted to like, and I did for most of the book, but often I wanted her to walk away on principle alone. So read this if you don’t mind a tough relationship that has quite a few hurdles to get over before a HEA begins to form. Not for the weak…it can be brutal at times in its pain.